Week of heartache

Hello everyone. I have a week left here in Perth and I cannot believe how time has flown by. I know I haven't updated in a while, but I got really busy and not a lot of interesting things were happening. But I will bring you up to speed now.


For the past few weeks I have been working on finishing Posters for the Wongi Warrior film that I got to Coolgardie to help finish filming. I made 2 different versions of the poster for them to use however they want. And then this past week they asked me to design a DVD case cover and the actual DVD sticker, and I got suckered into designing their Cygnet film logo as well. It was a lot to take on but I really took it as a challenge and really asked God to help me with the design process to make it turn out exactly like he wanted it so people will want to watch it. So far, I think they are really pleased with it and will hopefully finish it all this week.

I'm getting to the point now where I'm really struggling. The people close to me back home know that I don't like getting close to people because I'm so afraid I'm going to lose them, or they will end up leaving me at some point because that's what I'm used to. I really took a chance here and decided to open myself up so wide to people, so they could see me and I allowed myself to get really close to people here. Now its getting close for me to leave and I'm really struggling with it. I feel as if they won't remember me after I'm gone and they will just be lost friendships. Do they even really care about me? If they do, how will they continue the friendship? These are the questions I struggle with and I know Satan is just using all my hurts of the past to pull at me now and try to make me weak. Goodbyes are one of my greatest challenges in life. I hate them. Especially now. Will I ever see these amazing people ever again in this life? That seems so very depressing to me, because they have brought such joy, happiness, and laughter into my life. I hope I get to see them again. They probably don't even know how much they truly mean to me. I love them all so very much and they are very dear to my heart.

I ask for prayer as I say my goodbyes this last week. And also prayers that I can complete all these projects and they will be what they need them to be and so much more. But mainly for the goodbyes. I don't know how my heart is going to take it, so pray for strength to make it on the plane before I start my pitiful crying.

On a good note. I did have some amazing times this weekend and will get to have a few more this week. Last night we had a Christmas in July party because this is their winter and its cold right now. So, there was food, and Christmas music, and lots and lots of  people and it was just such a great time getting to hang out with friends and laugh. And tonight we are having a get together party for some of my friends to spend a little more time with me before I leave. I really appreciate them doing this because I do want to spend as much time with them as I possibly can. They are amazing people, why wouldn't I. And I think we are also having some team time this next week doing something as well.  I feel like it will be an amazing week, but a sad one as well.

As I look back on all the amazing things I have done in this trip, I just praise God for his amazing blessings in my life. I praise God that I was able to step out of my comfort zone and come halfway across the world by myself and do all this on my own. It was a big step for the shy small town country girl to come to a big city without knowing anyone and be okay doing it. God is so good, and I have learned so much on this amazing trip, and got to see things I never thought I would see.

I just want to thank all the people who supported me for this trip. Whether that be prayer or financial support. I am so thankful for you all and everything you have gave. This trip would not have been possible without you, so thank you from the bottom of my heart. Prayer for safe return as well. I hope you all have had an amazing summer. Love you all.

Love,

Regan Powers

To the Bush and Back

This past week has been a mix of emotions for me. I was a little sad because some of my really good friends left and I was adjusting, but I also was really excited for the amazing opportunity that I had the past 4 days. I got to travel with the Cygnet film team (part of the create team I work for) out to the Bush. Literately like 6 hours out in the desert to these small country towns and one aboriginal community. We got to stay in a really nice house while we were there and that was a total blessing. Cygnet films is currently making a short film called Wongi Warrior which I am designing a poster for. They had filmed most of their shots over 6 months ago and realized they needed some more shots to fill in the gaps in their movie. I volunteered to come with them and they let me go. I got to learn how to do sound/audio for them. I got to put all the equipment together and wear headphones and and hold a microphone out to record while they were filming. So that was one of the awesome things I got to do while I was there. The second was that I got to meet the 2 aboriginal kids that were acting in the movie. I got to see where they live and I got to play with them and talk to them. The 12 year old boy just really stole my heart. He was willing to act and let me take pictures of him, and I had some really good conversations with him, and got to play games with him. He broke my heart on the last day, asking if I was coming back when the screened the movie, and I had to tell him no, I would be back in America by then. But he kept insisting that I had to come back and see him. When I told him I had to go home and couldn't come back he was like "then just don't go back, just stay here." It just stole my heart for him. How can you feel so much love for a child you only knew for 4 days. And the little 6 year old girl that was acting as well was just adorable. She was full of energy that never stopped. She was climbing around the bus where we were filming basically the entire time. She was an onery little thing, but she was just too cute for her own good. One day on the way back from filming she fell asleep on me in the car. Again I only knew her for 4 days and she gave me hugs and just acting like she had known me forever. I was very sad when I had to say goodbye to them for the last time, knowing I will probably never get to see them ever again. But they will forever be in my heart and hopefully I will get a copy of the movie when they are done so I can always remember them.

I guess the big thing here is that I realized that this can impact their community so much. I am just so proud to be a part of something so big. These communities really need this kind of influence in their lives. And it also made me realize, that no matter what gifts God has given you, whether it be Graphic Design, or filming, or nursing, or a handy man, or a stay at home mom, no matter what you are good at, God can use you. God can use your abilities for amazing things to impact the world. But the only thing is, we have to be willing. If we have a willing heart to do what God says, then he will use you in ways you never thought possible. I wish more people were willing. I wish I had been more willing earlier in my life. All I know is that I am willing now. I am willing to put myself out there to change the world, to change hearts, to change lives. God has revealed to me that I am worth everything to him, and that he can use my gifts and abilities that HE gave me to further his kingdom. All he wants is our willingness to give up our lives, and place them in his hands to do with what he wants. If we all did that, think how much we could accomplish? All I know is that God has increased my love for children, and increased my love for others. Increased my love for him and his purpose for me. God I am willing. Send me.

I hope this has encouraged you. God has been doing amazing things in my life, and has opened up my eyes to so many things. I am very blessed to have come on this adventure and to see all the things I have seen. God's creation is so beautiful. Thank you all for your continued support and prayer. I have also been praying for all of you as well. What gifts has God blessed you with in your life? Are you willing to let him use you?

In Christ,

Regan Elaine Powers